“we have been raised to fear the yes in ourselves, our deepest cravings. for the demands of our released expectations lead us inevitably into actions which will help bring our lives into accordance with our needs, with our knowledge, with our desires. And the fear of our deepest cravings keeps them suspect, and will also keep us docile and loyal and obedient and lead us to settle for or to accept so many facets of our oppression as women. When we live outside ourselves, and by that I mean on external directives only rather than from our internal knowledge and needs, when we live away from those erotic guides from within ourselves, then our lives are limited by external and alien forms, and we conform to the needs of a structure that is not based on human need, let alone an individual’s. But when we begin to live from within outward, in touch with the power of the erotic within ourselves, and allowing that power to inform and illuminate our actions upon the world around us, then we begin to be responsible to ourselves in the deepest sense.”
-quote by Audre Lorde from Uses of the Erotic, Sister Outsider.
i want to celebrate Audre Lorde’s birthday by running across fields of forget-me-not flowers that teach us never to forget where we come from; the roots that our feet are grounded on. i want to plant new seeds of greens in the garden to feed my body, therefore feeding the little one inside soon to be outside. i want to lay in bed for hours amongst my favorite books, giving time to my spirit to enjoy the words of its ancestors who teach us so much about struggle, life, and movement beyond fear. i want to take dozens of photos of the nearing sunset as i watch the birds by the l.a. river enjoy the multitude of life they feed from daily.
most of all, i want to laugh with joy for the life I’ve chosen, at times a bumpy path to get here nonetheless has taught me so much. laugh so loud that the generations of children who are here/are on their way hear my cry, they who are come to teach us healing paths they re-member from their own journey to us. yes, today as we celebrate Audre Lorde’s birthday, honoring her path and lessons left behind, i want to feel full with life and gratitude.
happy birthday as well to Toni Morrison, accomplished writer and activist.
some of her words: