unexpected gifts

we were in the altar room sitting on the floor in midst of a major house cleaning mission in preparation for a wedding that will take place at my house this weekend. i had brought over to share with her pieces of jewelry, dear to my heart, that i wanted help giving away…clearing out old energy and making room for anew.

as i am explaining each piece, i begin to tear up when i show her a mother of pearl ring, hand made somewhere near an ocean by an older man who sold it to me and someone i used to know some time back. Q loved it. thought it was so beautiful, even suggested we add to the ring a shell to make it new. i decided to keep the ring and see if i can shift its energy. she’s right, it is a gorgeous ring and means a lot to me 😀

she then starts to dig through her altar items and hands me a bird leg with foot and a feather. colors- off white and brown. my eyes felt like they closed and my mind went blank for a minute, waking up to a view of a bird flying, somewhere in the spirit world. i opened my eyes and she was just looking at me. she said, you know the name of this bird. what is it? i said, i know this bird, i have seen it in my dreams.

eventually i remembered. her name is the barn owl. not too long ago i was reading with a friend on this very bird. she too had found herself attracted to this bird so i decided to share with her the information i knew about her totem. i was surprised when this gift was given to me by the Elder, only for a few moments before so many things started to make sense for me.

i’m in the middle of a death/re-birth. that is why i find myself waking up with sorrow and sleeping with joy. the ups and downs in my emotions are normal, i am de-toxing old energy, shedding shame and guilt, monstros from the past that didn’t let me breathe easily. those aren’t small tasks, finding new ground to stand on isn’t easy. the owl medicine serves me well, she sees in the darkest of moments and knows that there is light to come… a new sunrise to welcome a new day. i have to remember the hummingbird medicine that reminds me to be gentle with myself…i too often forget this!

more on owl meanings and symbolisms:

Owl sees and knows the truth. It’s ability to navigate through the darkest night and bring back nourishment for itself and others is the foundation of this essence. When you have lost your way, owl essence will guide you back to your proper path and wisdom. Death and rebirth, releasing that which has outlived it’s benefit and usefulness in your life, actual physical death transition, can be placed in a bowl of water and used to help earth bound Souls find their guides and loved ones. Clearing a home or land of negative energy. Starting over in a new life or releasing the ties that kept you bound to the old one.

Think for a moment what your life would be like if you were able to jettison anything that did not speak to you on a Soul level. What would remain? What then would you “hunt” because it provided for you on all levels? That is what Owl medicine teaches us to do. We find that as we begin to move through the process of what we truly want, clearing the old to make way for the new birth of the Self that is close at hand, we find that other obstacles, limitations, fears and anxieties also begin to “die” in our lives. They no longer have the hooks to remain attached to our energy fields and without our support, they must die.

Owl knows that all apparent manner of death is in fact a liberation into a new life. Something must first be cleared away for anything new to be born. When a person moves, leaves a job or relationship, has a baby, adopts a new animal friend, something in the old way of life had to die for the new to be created. At the time it may seem incredibly painful because we have been taught that death is an ending, not a new beginning, and that what is in the process of being born is always more beneficial than the old. The pain and grief is extended and heightened when we try to hang on to what was because we believe that s the best we would ever have. The unknown can seem dreadfully forbidding, how will we cope, who will be there if we stumble, what if we fail?

Owl can take us beyond those thoughts and fears, for Owl sees far into the future and knows that even after the darkest night there is a new dawn that is approaching. It is as inevitable as babies crying and of buds bursting for th from plants in the spring. From every death something new must emerge for life is ever renewing itself. The Crow that was taken by an Owl last summer may reappear the following spring as a nestling. The Berries that were eaten by a Bear one year may reappear the next as a bird, an ant or a human being. All of life is interconnected and we are all part and parcel of the same fabric that wends its way through the stories of our own life and death. Death then becomes not a loss but a new adventure to be explored with great abandon and joy. (information found HERE)


Happy Full Moon!


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